"I dont know how to play it like im not in love with you,
but i'll try.
even though I do still..
miss you,
just like the air that I breath,
I need you with me
Im not gonna lie,
I cant imagine my life without you, but I..
suppose I will survive."

Hello!
Long time no blog.
Alott of things are going on, especially cause the world's ending.

Yes, it is. I admit, I have been doing many sins since i was like, 4-5? But that doesn't count, as far as I'm concern. Only after I get my red light, which is end of Primary 5. Yes, only that short period of time, and I have been doing A LOT of sins, alot. I think, it's really time for me to get back, to where I'm supposed to be. But I know, even though they predict it's gonna be in 2012, it's still way too late.

I want to see my brother grow, just like how my sister watch me grow for 13 years. I wanna grow and get my own job, to feel how my parents work their asses out to get me comfortable. I wanna get married, to feel the one-day feeling of being the queen. I want to make my own family, so that I know the pain that my mother went through with me. I want to do everything. But it seems, god doesn't allow me to.

To everybody out there,
I'm sorry for all the sins i've done,
Im sorry for all the misunderstanding,
I'm sorry, for everything.
Before we leave this world and there's no one to care about, only yourself,
let's make it to the fullest, shall we.?
Spread the love around, cause I love you guys so much.
all i want to say is,
take care of yourself, and your ibadah.
yes, you might say I'm alem: that's cause I'm really scared of doomsday.
and let's all go to syurga, together.

amin.

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